So where the hell have I been for the past few years…surviving and thriving!
Losing a loved one is one of the most difficult and painful experiences one can go through. It can feel overwhelming and all-consuming, leaving you with a range of emotions from sadness and grief to anger and confusion. When I lost my grandmother and stepdad, I felt like a part of me had been ripped away. It was a devastating blow to me and my family, and we struggled to come to terms with our loss.
My grandmother was a pillar of strength and love in our family. She nurtured and gave all of herself to my children and I and to my whole family. She did everyting with grace and patience and showed unconditional love. Losing her left a void that could never be filled. It took me a long time to accept that she was no longer with us, and I still miss her dearly. And then, just as I thought maybe we could manage the pain and rief of her loss, we lost my stepdad. His passing was sudden and unexpected, and it left us reeling with shock and disbelief. Coping with the loss of two important people in my life was a difficult process, one I am still managing to grasp.
I then lost my aunt, two uncles, my husbands grandmother and most recently my beautiful abuelita who lived to the beautful age of 99! these past few years has taken soooo much from my family. Its hard to not want to hibernate and never return to reality. But I did and I am trying every day to continue to push forward with life.
Now that I have gotten that off my chest… some positive has occured in all of my rainy season…I am a year shy of my PhD. in Educational Leadership, I have immersed myself into my new career path and have embraced all that comes with it. While most are running from education I am dedicating my future years to it!
My boys are now ten and five. My certified wild child is going into kindergarten and ny beautiful old soul is kicking butt in the fourth grade. I am finding new ways to find joy in all that life has thrown my way and embracing the joy of all that is in my life.